Procrastination, Fear, and Faith

I'm a procrastinator. Not with everything. Laundry (usually) gets done promptly. Thank-you cards are generally sent on time. I buy Christmas gifts well in advance.

But I find that there's a direct corelation between how long I procrastinate, and how afraid I am of failing. Not only is this irrational, but even I know it's self-defeating. When I've reached the last possible moment to get whatever-it-is done, the urgency is finally greater than my doubt.

I must mail my application for Spiritual Direction training TODAY. And so I am finishing it now. It's honest, and thoughtful, but I couldn't do it before today because it was so daunting. Not, it's a little daunting, but holding out for perfection is no longer an option, so it's OK to just dive in.

Update: Procrastination or not, I just sent in my application!