So, I'm working on my application, and I'm praying, and I'm thinking, and one of my biggest concerns about getting into the program is the likelihood of having a crazy schedule.

I thought to myself, "Is this discernment? Is this God saying it's a bad idea?"

Predictably, I just shoved that thought down for a couple of days.

Then I remembered what happens when I ignore my gut/the Holy Spirit, and sat down and prayed.

The damnedest thing happened. I realized I'm not worried about the tight schedule. Nope. I'm worried that if I have a tight schedule, I'll lose my loved ones. I'm worried that if I'm less available/accessible, I won't be worth the bother of loving.

What a bunch of horseshit.

Bring on the chaos. There's nowhere Love can't go.


  1. LOVE this!!! You are so right...there IS nowhere that love can't go!

  2. Thank you! I needed this reminder that discernment isn't SUPPOSED to be easy!

  3. Oh, gosh-- I'm not sure I'm exactly saying that, Kim. I think sometimes it is, and sometimes it isn't-- I get in trouble when I assume that God is supposed to work in one particular way.


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