So, I'm working on my application, and I'm praying, and I'm thinking, and one of my biggest concerns about getting into the program is the likelihood of having a crazy schedule.
I thought to myself, "Is this discernment? Is this God saying it's a bad idea?"
Predictably, I just shoved that thought down for a couple of days.
Then I remembered what happens when I ignore my gut/the Holy Spirit, and sat down and prayed.
The damnedest thing happened. I realized I'm not worried about the tight schedule. Nope. I'm worried that if I have a tight schedule, I'll lose my loved ones. I'm worried that if I'm less available/accessible, I won't be worth the bother of loving.
What a bunch of horseshit.
Bring on the chaos. There's nowhere Love can't go.
4.07.2011
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"So keep fightin' for freedom and justice, beloveds, but don't you forget to have fun doin' it. Lord, let your laughter ring forth. Be outrageous, ridicule the fraidy-cats, rejoice in all the oddities that freedom can produce. And when you get through kickin' ass and celebratin' the sheer joy of a good fight, be sure to tell those who come after how much fun it was."
-Saint Molly Ivins
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LOVE this!!! You are so right...there IS nowhere that love can't go!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I needed this reminder that discernment isn't SUPPOSED to be easy!
ReplyDeleteOh, gosh-- I'm not sure I'm exactly saying that, Kim. I think sometimes it is, and sometimes it isn't-- I get in trouble when I assume that God is supposed to work in one particular way.
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