I've noticed over the last couple of days that I'm feeling pretty cranky. I'm not watching my tongue as much as I should with people who usually irritate me, and I'm short-tempered even with the easy people.
The silver lining here is that when I realized that, I though, "Hmmm... when's the last time I took time away for myself?" I realized that I desperately want a day off alone, just my own private hooky-playing. Yesterday was a 12-hour day, between a very early meeting, work, the gym, and leading evening prayer. Work has been busybusybusy, and home is pretty busy right now, too. I sat and tried to pray before evening prayer last night, and felt very out-of-practice. Late last night, annoyed with what appears to be a loved one's complete lack of aspirations, instead of dwelling on him, I resolved to take a closer look at how I can grow more into my own motivations.
It does feel good to recognize that when everyone is pissing me off, it very well may be about me.
Christmas Eve Report
11 hours ago
Thanks! This was the kick in the tail I needed after a week full of frustrations, perhaps I'm just frustrated with myself. Spent today Christmas shopping (trying some retail therapy) but time resting and reflecting might have been more helpful.
ReplyDeletePeace to you!
hey! you are very self-aware. hope you can get what you need.
ReplyDeleteAh, that is too often true. Thanks for the reminder. Its easier to blame everyone else, so thanks for helping me claim my own crap in my crankiness.
ReplyDeletegood work, mrs. m.
ReplyDeletevery good work.
Mrs. M, how awake you are this
ReplyDeleteAdvent! Hope you can take the time you need for yourself.
You have to take care of yourself! If you don't then nothing else gets taken care of!
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