I think I've mentioned that I've been getting a little broody every now and then, looking at onesies and baby slings, thinking that a little ankle-biter might be a nice idea.
Lately, though, I've also had a good strong dose of the opposite, a case of, "Omigod, someday I'm going to have babies and I'll NEVER HAVE HAD ANY FUN AT ALL and I will have LOST MY CHANCE and I will just be TIED DOWN AND MISERABLE."
This is not a fun feeling, let me tell you.
Part of the broodiness and the concentration on onesies stems from the fact that Mr. M is about 5 years older than I am, and he doesn't want to be hobbling around when the little varmits are in kindergarten.
But here's my nor'easter of wisdom today: it's ok to wait a little longer than planned. It's OK to savor a bit more freedom. Him being a few years older than planned is not the end of the world, and it might be a small price for my sanity.
9.10.2007
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"So keep fightin' for freedom and justice, beloveds, but don't you forget to have fun doin' it. Lord, let your laughter ring forth. Be outrageous, ridicule the fraidy-cats, rejoice in all the oddities that freedom can produce. And when you get through kickin' ass and celebratin' the sheer joy of a good fight, be sure to tell those who come after how much fun it was."
-Saint Molly Ivins
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Amen, sister.
ReplyDeleteIn God's time. All will be well.
ReplyDeleteThere will be a right time. It IS awfully hard to watch people making babies and doing the parenting thing. There's a little baby boom due October-January around me, and I can't help feeling rather irrationally jealous, even knowing intellectually that they are at the right time for them and that I am not yet ready.
ReplyDeleteJust breathe. It is never the perfect time to have children, and when you have children, it is just the right time. Love the paradox.
ReplyDeleteOh girl...you have time. You will have then when you have them! There is no perfect time.
ReplyDeleteAND...I am 44 and will never have another baby and I get misty onesies at wal mart sweetie.
ReplyDeleteI so, so understand those feelings. I spent the first three months of our attempting to conceive dreaming of onesies and chubby cheeks and tiny toes. Then I spent the next six months noticing screaming kids at the grocery store and moms who looked miserable and I thought, "OH MY LORD, what if we actually succeed? And have a kid? I will be a mom! FOREVER!" which freaked me out. Now I'm somewhere inbetween.
ReplyDeleteAnd my beloved is 10 years older than I am, so he'll already be old when these kids are eventually born. :) You're not alone.
I chuckled when I read your description of "ankle-biter". My aunt was working on her ceiling fan when my daughter was about 2 and she mentioned that term. My daughter promptly bit her - on the ankle.
ReplyDeleteRelax, I was over thirty and I have enjoyed it more as we age together.
(((Mrs. M)))
ReplyDeleteAnd in the meantime, here are your interview questions. Have fun!
ReplyDelete1. You say that your spiritual background is eclectic. How did you find your way to the Episcopal church? What are some of the “best things about being Episcopalian” for you?
2. I know that you are currently a postulant for the priesthood (and am sorry to hear it’s been “institutionally frustrating” at times). When did you first feel called to the priest hood and what has keep calling you back through the challenges you have faced to date?
3. As you look back on your life, what “watershed” or crossroads event(s) do you identify as having been life changing or course altering for you, especially in terms of your faith journey?
4. How did you meet Mr. M?
5. Oh do please tell us about your Inner Crusader Rabbit!
And I loved Mompriest’s bonus question so much, I’m going to offer it to you, too: Is there a question you've always wanted someone to ask you but it's never been asked? If so, what is it and what is your response?
And the “mandatory rules”
1. If you are interested in being interviewed, leave me a comment saying “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by posting five questions for you. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your blog with a post containing your answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
Yes. Jill is right. Whenever it happens will be the right time. Ummm...read my recent post if you feel like birth control...kidding aside, it is the most exquisite and most difficult thing, those little ankle biters!
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